Sunday, April 17, 2011

honest answer

By the way, if you're listening,
one can't live on memories.
I can't.
It's humanly impossible.
And if you do, then, well you aren't human.
But then, didn't you always know that?

Four years late, but it matters this exists. to me atleast.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

sleeping beauty

as i watch you sleep,
i gently weep,
i want you to be,
right next to me,
but it ain't so,
i don't want to go,
so i watch you sleep,
as i watch and weep.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

I searched and searched till i stopped searching,
but i couldn't find home.
where is it? when will i find it? will i find it?
disheartened, despair, frustration,
i left to seek it somewhere new;
then i found you.
You are my home.
and wherever we go together, i will find my home.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

untitled

I need home...
i need my home...
something that's just mine...
something that feels right.
i need a happy ending.

untitled

As we stand, holding hands,
looking curiously upon our body holders;
i fear what i will see inside.
but you hold my hand, so i stand,
looking upon my body holder...

unfulfilled desires...dreams...reality...all mixed in one.
i am what i was.
we are what we were.
eternal timeless bliss joy...
inside is what i became...
the futility.. the sadness.. loneliness...
all trapped in my moist still body...

as we go nearer, i feel a chill...
i dont want to remember...
i dont want to be reminded...
the lost youth.. the lost dreams.. the lost life.
the container right in front of us,
you extend your arm......

... and i wake up.
you're beside me....
it was only a dream...

dream, illusion, reality... can You tell the difference...?

Monday, August 4, 2008

Loreto Girls Forever


Twelve years we grew in Loreto House,

It made us what we are, and shapes what we will be.

Forever shall we, both you and me, be Loreto girls at heart.

This school of me shall e‘er remain, and me of it, a part.

May we join hands and be the chains that bind this sisterhood.

Sweet dreams we dreamt together, both you and me,

Made promises, both big and small, thoughtless and raw,

imagined a future, idealistic and perfect,

built castles in the air, lived in our dream world, everything was right.

Imagination overruled all; protected and safe, in the bubble of goodness.

May the memories of days gone past;

Always link and hold us all, from now till we are older.

And may they be so strong as to, evoke a single tear;

Even when we are too old to cry, and school days long have left behind,

May it attain the phoenix power, and resurrect from the remains,

The youth that we long lost to time,

the love and sisterhood divine,

and defying time and age,
fill us with nostalgic joy, of the purest kind,

that takes us back, back to the beginning.

And then will it rise above the all; surreal, pure-

reality overridden by memories.

That all will vanish but the love, the innocence; once ours.

And in that mystic hour, we become,

both you and me, young girls again,

The toll of time forgotten, the supple radiance aglow,

freshness, sweet and innocent

The dream-world, governing reality,

We shall but freeze these moments in eternity,

To return to it as we please,

And preserve the beauty forever.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Nightmare..

















As i start awake, frightening images in my sleepy eyes;
i search..i search...for you to hold,
for your comforting touch.. your gentle voice...
and all i want is no more;
for who can seek anything beyond the realms of heaven?
ironic; i cant have the only thing i want.

The darkness all around me, whispers silently-
lost memories, faded moments, timeless words..
i wonder, can the bright light erase them?
and the day comes, and the magic of the night is broken.
but the cycle rotates back...
and then comes the night again... promising, hopeful and subtle.
the garish day lurks around the corner, in hiding, waiting to surround me,
engulf me once again... but the night always returns.

and i churn about in this never-ending circle...
round and round; faster and faster-
till the light and night merge and there is no difference.
The rotation, continuos, and monotonous, continues...
i lose track of darkness and light- its all the same for me..

The images come every day- varied, yearning,hopeful.
sometimes realistic, sometimes not.
but the effect is always the same.
quivering lips, cold feet, shaking hands, wide moist eyes,
wrinkled forehead, thumping heart, body frozen, mind closed.
when will it be over? i ask...and get no reply.
the silence suffocating...the emptiness glaring.
i have no choice.
I close my eyes, and dream again.